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this might make things a little better [27 Sep 2007|05:45pm]
This morning after once again pulling 16 hours in the hell pit I've been finding myself at too much lately, I finally had enough and told the agency I work for to pull me out, I'm not going back. No, not even for the 16 hour shift I was supposed to work tonight.
That place is nothing but accusations and pettiness. I've found myself seriously turning into someone different working there. And I didn't go into agency work to work over 40 hours a week at the same place for over a year... I went into agency because I couldn't tolerate the politics and gossip of working at any given facility.
My mood will probably change over the next couple weeks for the better. I'm slightly worried about getting my hours in, but its always worked out... even before I worked there and it will work out now...

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I'm M-a-r-r-i-e-d [21 Jun 2007|08:24pm]
[ mood | calm ]

6-17-07 5:30 am sunrise... On the sands of the atlantic ocean.
Just me and he.. it was a perfect moment.. of many perfect moments.
I've never been so calm and peaceful and happy.

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[30 May 2007|10:54pm]
Ive been working on my veil. Its turning out gorgeous, pearlized beads trimming tulle layer one, crystal beads trimming layer two, and heishi shell on layer three, all in white, cause I'm a virgin. ;x
Not long to go... I need more hours for more money. But I'm just not feeling like working. No choice, two doubles in the next two days, I wont be home at all, and god knows the weekend will probably bring 2 more to a total of 80 hours this week *sigh*
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xposted to myspace which just pisses me off lately. [27 May 2007|01:48pm]
[ mood | tired ]

After a few days off I've gone full force back into working, (the days off were not by choice). Two doubles in a row and my scheduler was ringing the phone off the hook to schedule me another one today, thought I had the day off, but since I been bitching about hours and money I had to take what I could get and settled with a 12 hour.
I left the hospital gig alone for a while, as weepy as I'm going to be with the doubles... I get tearful when I'm tired, I cry at everything... Its probably not a good idea, not to mention they were the ones that gave me the unwanted days off.
Memorial Day:
I've been seeing alot of stupid things circulating around about memorial day and being patriotic, I've a suggestion to make... Put your fucking money where your mouth is and instead of having a picnic to "commemorate" the fact that you have a day off, why dont you go into any nursing home and pay respect yourself to any veteran who is locked within these geriatic warehouses with no family? They dont care if you blog your patriotic tendencies or pass it on in a myspace bulletin, they dont care if you wave a flag outside your house, they are the true forgotten. Yes we have those now who are fighting for our freedoms, but there are those that fought long ago, most times not coming home to the "hoorah" that is given now adays and have noone to talk to. You would be suprised at what stories they could tell you. And having spent quite a bit of time with alot of them I can tell you they dont care if you burn a flag, wipe your ass with one, what your political affiliations are, what you feel about the war, what you look like, what religion you are, what you wear etc.. etc... They would simply be happy to have someone pay attention to them for a while.
This is what I will be doing on memorial day.

The Little Boy and the Old Man

Said the little boy, "Sometimes I drop my spoon."
Said the little old man, "I do that too."
The little boy whispered, "I wet my pants."
"I do that too," laughed the old man.
"But worst of all," said the boy, "it seems
Grown-ups don't pay attention to me."
And he felt the warmth of a wrinkled old hand.
"I know what you mean," said the little old man.

-Shel Silverstein

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[23 May 2007|11:51pm]
[ mood | loved ]

my baby.

today I thought for a hot minute we were going to have to change our wedding plans, an impending court date... a huge gas bill... a bunch of money things blocking our way. We have the date planned for our year anniversary. So I was thinking that we would do it on 7-7-07 but really really wanted it on our anniv. I was near tears and told him it wouldnt be as special if it wasnt on our anniverary, he just kissed my forehead and said "baby, it will be special any time" Tis why I love him so!
Figured out I have 4 huge checks coming up before then, since I get paid weekly and its going to be no problem, although the length of honeymoon time will be cut short a bit due to forementioned court date, by two days only..which still gives us plenty of time to do everything we wanted.
I'm excited beyond words, I know the paper doesnt mean anything really, but I just want to attach myself to him in every way possible. I've never felt so close to someone, felt so understood. So eternal. We've been together a year now, almost and its like the first week, we are just as in love. Only difference is the comfort level which makes it so much nicer.
Yeah I think I'm going to ressurect my LJ. ;D

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[26 Apr 2007|01:38pm]
oh yeah ... i'm resurrecting this thing tonight.
as soon as I figure out how to change the email on it
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[22 Mar 2006|03:35pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

I want the opposite of what I always have.
I want more than I'm ever given.
I'm never satisfied with the here and now.

Extreme. Utmost. Ultimate.

It really sucks trying to live up to the ideals in my mind. Because of the fact that theyre mythological, unobtainable, unrealistic.. I file away everything thats possibly good and realistic under the heading of banality.
Someone please turn off my brain.

In good news, my week is full.. I shall not be bored for a second, except right now.. waiting on a phone call...*rips out hair*

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